*writes another weird topic*

**SHATOUSHKA** · July 20th, 2004, 05:10 PM

are you attached?
cuz i am....

*ponders to self*
hmmm... i DO do this a lot. why??
i dunno. is this a public board?
private? publicly private? privately
public? simple complexity? complex
simplicity?

have i gone mental? am i sane?
wtf is happening? wtf is wrong with me?
do i need meds? do i need food?
am i capapble of being real? am i whole?
am i disparaging? am i honest?

where am i? what am i doing?
why does this seem strange?

hello?? hello??????

**SHATOUSHKA** · July 20th, 2004, 05:13 PM

A to C.
C to M.
this is all
i ever am.

hmmm...

TastinGood · July 20th, 2004, 05:41 PM

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**demon chloe** · July 20th, 2004, 07:50 PM

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**The Reverend Dark Angel** · July 20th, 2004, 08:27 PM

Are you attached?: No. Thanks for the reminder.

Hmmm... I DO do this a lot. why??: Intense Curiousity.

Is this a public board?: Yes.

Private?: No.

Publicly private?: No.

Privately public?: Sure, why not.

Simple complexity?: Yep.

Complex simplicity?: Yep again.

Have i gone mental?: Not just yet.

Am i sane?: Define Sane...

Wtf is happening?: Currently the wind off the coast of Japan is rising because a butterfly flapped its wings in Tennesse.

Wtf is wrong with me?: You're trying to believe that there's something wrong with you.

Do i need meds?: Robotussin.

Do i need food?: We all do.

Am i capapble of being real?: Well I doubt that you're a figment of all these people's imaginations.

Am i whole?: You're only missing a few strands of hair, but you can get those back from the brush.

Am i disparaging?: Hang on, let me look that up... No.

Am i honest?: Yeah. Confusing but honest.

Where am i?: You are where you are.

What am i doing?: Telescopic Xray vision says you're sitting down.

Why does this seem strange?: Cause disparaging isn't a normal everyday word.

hello??: Hi.

hello??????: I SAID HI!

**Mystyx** · July 21st, 2004, 01:19 AM

LOL...TJ that was great!!!!

*just cracks up*

**SHATOUSHKA** · July 21st, 2004, 01:20 AM

hmmmm....

**SHATOUSHKA** · July 21st, 2004, 01:52 AM

i have a (few) live journal(s) in which i post
private things... things that, for some reason,
i cannot get myself to post on hostboard no matter
HOW hard i try. this is the reason this board is
too public.

however, even in my LJ(s) i feign.... just as i
do here. why??? this is the reason this board is
too private.

*ponders more*
is there a happy medium?
should there be?
feigning... feigning....
do you know? would you recgonize it?
can you be sure?
what part of 'me' is here?
i dunno that 'me' is here....
where is 'me'?
i am the synthesis of pieces of 'me'....
pieces of 'me' are everywhere.
i am synergetic.
but am i real?
what is real? where is real?
if a piece of 'me' is real, and another
piece of 'me' feigns... what does that
make of the synthesis?